My Wife, My Depravity, Our Life

Damn, why is it so hard to find a woman among females. Then add to that I like mines to be unique, different and have something of strength about them. But wait there is more! I want to be able to slap the taste out of her mouth, fuck her until her pussy swells shut, piss on her along with her being the woman I can enjoy being with, loves to travel, eat and nerdy things.

So yes, my picky damn self is in a super niche of sorts when it comes to things needed and wanted. Have I found what i wanted? Yes, I have. But it takes two to tango.

No matter the dynamics. One or more. D/s or vanilla whore. The constant remains that I need that one woman that is mine and we hold a very intimate relationship. I want another woman to be in the inner sanctum again besides Ru.

A woman that is sexy and we can discuss, disagree, love and embrace all aspects of life. She trusts me and understands that I protect her and our lives. No matter what is happening, when you are actually in that position then I will make sure that you will be just fine.

Why marriage, when I can just have the situations and multiple females for whatever? Because I enjoy marriage. I want that one woman that epitome's understanding, acceptance, being with me and loving me.

When I am flogging, beating her with the cane and slapping her in her face as I piss on her. I want to see that look in her face that says I need this and the energy that says I love you and us.

The days your are moody, grumpy and everything I want you to find comfort in me. Even if it is merely a matter of sitting in the same room doing completely different things.

So yes, i want to do all kinds of sadistic and depraved things to break, destroy and humiliate my most intimate, personal partnered with me. While she understands, accepts, desires and loves it all and me.

Is it even possible? I am having my doubts even though the perfect blueprint was set with lil red. I wonder if she even can or desires to be, keep up or anything with these things. The complications are grand and I am not the simple, what you are use to man.

Will anyone ever be ready for this type of relationship? Or has goals and destiny ran it's course? And it's time to drop a nuke and just go with the flow or a scaled back and not as intimate plan?

Just the things I want in one woman. Yet it is like Star Trek: The Undiscovered Country. Primitive episode in an advanced plan.

But if I could put them all together in the Build a Bitch machine. I would have my perfedct woman. Loving, caring, intelligent, adventurous, compassionate, understanding, super freak, my porn star, pain and rope slut woman!

Yeah, it is worst than trying to win the lottery. lol

Damn