The One and Then Some

I don't apologize for being me or telling you what I want, feel, need and where we can be. I am and always will be me...the ABM Caveman.

lil red and I have dated and I told her from the beginning that she was the one. Simply stated and put and meant. She holds man things that can keep, hold and stimulate my attention. Like the weird things to laugh at and mental interactions. Her pain tolerance or as she calls it zoning out where it don't matter. The fact that I got that this is the CONNECTION feeling and message is the reason why I said anything in the first place after I fought with myself about it.

I am use to things progressing at my pace. Use to desire, lust and more to be enforced. The lightning bolts and rods of Zeus so to speak. I know this is a miracle situation if it happens. But I was spoiled when I was married so sue me.

As a man i need the interest, lust, passion, desire and reinforce things that say "Hey, remember me?" I am not chasing or any of that shit. And being a Dominant has shown me many different things. Where I no longer lead and recover. I simply lead. There isn't a big conference to be had about every detail and thing. I am here with you and to guide, help and more if you consented to undertake this dynamic in growth and living.

Dating turned Poly

I have done poly a number of times to get things I needed for that balance. For the first time I acdtually did it as a Dominant for the experience and understanding of the differences in subs. Because I can't base anything off of lil red and our interactions. So I have learned a lot. Dealt with and managed a lot. Growing.

I still am crazy enough to want the ONE. The woman that actually will be in my inner sanctum as my wife, submissive and fellow anomoly. To be able to break her completely and bring her back over and over again. I enjoy that feeling both mentally and sexually. Where our trust and understanding allows her to desire, need to have, miss and always feel me.

I started with little one and flower child out of the blue and with no intention until I decided on gaining experience. Yeah, I was still hoping for and still hoping for the main thing to happen properly. But you can't lead a horse to water and make it drink.

Hell if I know

Basically I am letting things happen as they will. I have thrown the gauntlet out there. If it is chosen then glory awaits. If not then help yourself...