Research, Life Unscripted and Whatever Man

So let's see what the deal has been.

I did an experiment. Since I was told I don't give the females a chance. And I am not nice enough to the humans at all. So I flirted both on and offline. Showed interest and had a couple decent convos. Then the drop off. And hell, it wasn't even all sexual. So that myth about me not being nice enough or open enough for the humans is not doing well. Hell, I did better talking to the ex chick that was about to be a baby momma. That theory really isn't working for those that said it to me. lol

Ru Ru and LR have been worried about me. And that is understandable. Right now things are what they are. Nothing I can say or do about that. Thankful for their concern and care.

I had to chuckle at Ru Ru this morning when she was filling me on her life unscripted. She said she missed the days that she was entertained by my adventures. I told her this is pay back for all the times that she was entertained and she is nowhere near the stuff I went through. But she said she needs me to get back to adventure. lol I think that is highly unlikely these days.

I found what I wanted. Yet the valley of death and timing are my frontline enemies. This adjusting and be something new thing wouldn't work for me. So the scorched earth policy kicked into effect. Even to the point that the related this past weekend that didn't know me. Had to see the real me. Not the quiet one that they had seen previously due to parental attachments.

I am comfortable with my Dom journey. I think it will be on point once things are settled and then I will be able to crack the code of LR to finally unlock where I know we will be. The Sadist in me is still hating and torturing me because we have not gotten our fix that is so desperately needed. This is killing me literally and more.

In reading and discussing Doms and Masters and their ability to converse, teach and apprenticeship I am glad i have met and encountered those that I have. Different dynamics, different ways they run their families but still very detrimental to understanding. I have enjoyed and continue to enjoy interactions and asking questions while listening and learning. Hell, another reason I definitely miss Black Beat this year.

oh well, countdown to dealing with the realization of everything in 24.

have a good one. find you a fluffer or something.