I Wonder

I wonder

Because I have given my heart and interest to one female. Why she is so fearful of it? Why so combative of resolved desire and purpose?

I wonder

Why it is hard to understand the things that I need from you? Those things that help me cope, solve and deal with life and the curves that are thrown in. That is part of the openness and me that I have given.

I wonder

Am I the only one that has this intense desire and interest? Is it merely a one sided see saw affair?

I wonder

Does love exist? Or is it merely a figment of nothingness now? I have my love but damn it is not well recieved. And others find it hard to give it no matter how much you love them.

I wonder

Is Ru the only one that I can truly be me and have understand me?

I wonder

Why fight me about a relationship I would think we both seek? Everything doesn't fit your world or mine perfectly.

I wonder

Will this Beast of me finally feed? Will I finally get that release? Can a connection be permanent.

And I wonder

That status of things. Temporary or Permanency. I am just trying to know which level i need to remain on and keep.