Current Situation: Operation Whatever

It has been a while since I have post here. So we will play catch up and with things. smdh

Shibaricon was a bust with everything dealing with the parental units. Still pissed about that. I am past ready to get them back to bama and leave them.

Did my first public scene last weekend in VA with flogging. Along with two other Sirs. Making her take the beating and denying her cumming was decent.

This is my month and right now I am just like fuck it! Everything is fucked up from one end to the other. As usual Evil will survive but the enjoyment that would normally occur is vacant.

I find myself becoming an altered previous version of myself. A darker path. Relations have played a serious part in that.

Feelings and emotions have gave way to a calculated void. Though they remain. They are imprisoned somewhere in the darkness. The beginning of the year that was filled with an outlook of comfort, pleasure and advancement was nuked. The new mission: Make move and forge ahead regardless. A total transformation from the light to darkness. A normal representation of me basically.

I am too intense. Not nice. Too forward. Scare the humans. And who knows what the fuck else.

The at now situation report has revealed:

Distant

Nonchalant

It is what it is

attitude

No need to fight against allies. Just realize that I am my ally.

And I really realized just how disconnected I am from the pink ranger this weekend. I found myself looking and trying to remember the past and how much it is nothing like the now. But hey when people change the connection or lack of one changes.

Those that I once was close to and loved have become a remnant this year. Whether it is the pink ranger, munchkin, the ex best friend and more.

I guess this is the preparation for what will occur next. At least I will be ready for the culmination and dissolving of it all.

*Angry Black Man* signing off