Unfeeling

The simplicity of feeling absolutely nothing. Just as humans want and expect. Even when it goes against what you want and feel. It is really Perfect.

In this era of the "think like a man" and all that mess. It has become normal for everyone and everything to be disconnected. To have no association but fleeting at best. The modern day effect of relations.

My feelings can be super strong or super apathetic. Just depends on the choice of subject. I thrive cold hearted or with my heart melting. The choice is the only difference.

I am not difficult or complex. I tell you what I want and need. All you have to do is decide if you fit. Show me you are interested and what you want. That way you can be a fly by night, a for a moment in time, Permanent or nothing. As Black Sheep said "The choice is yours."

I feel you. I want you. I love you. Come be mine. Love, serve, please and be with me. That is not that hard to understand or define. Believe me I was married with these same principles and it was great. Apparently I was spoiled by my wife because everything was direct and said without a Cap n Crunch decoder ring. We displayed our feelings openly and powerfully. I guess that was a miracle in time.

I have my feelings. And the direction I enjoy most of the time. I don't deny or hide. I am prominent with mine.

But I also turn them off. Making myself cold as steel on a starry night. I do not give feelings, myself or anything else personal to the humans. They are not authorized for any of that. And even though it has been said people would feel better if they saw my nicer side. I see no reason to ever allow them to see that side.

I told you, showed you that you are in my heart and soul. There is no deeper feeling inside. I won't and have not used any of this as just something to say or do at the time. For me and only me these things hold power. And I wield them like they are powerful things.

Yet, I also understand feelings, emotions, passion are a dying dinosaur of old times. These things are feared and quarantined from rearing their ugly heads in relations during this time.

I am just going to be me. Feeling when it is warranted and absent feelings when there is no relevence. After all it is what is expected and required in these days and times.